A few days ago, my husband had a dream that we had weeds growing in our house, along with some grass and there were other people that had weeds growing in their homes also. On Sunday morning, during the praise and worship portion of the service, the Lord began reminding me of the dream. I felt bad about it at first, because I knew I had been too busy lately or had been allowing other things to distract me and I had not been spending much quality time with the Lord. As I pondered the dream, the Lord began to speak a word to my heart that said: “I am not condemning you, I love you, I miss you. There are things that I want to impart to you and speak to you about.” In my mind’s eye, it was like I could see or sense the Lord’s arm stretched out towards me as an invitation to come in close for a hug. This melted my heart. I went from feeling condemned to feeling very loved. I sensed that this was not just a word for me, but for the congregation also, so I went up front and shared the dream and the word that the Lord gave me. The tone of the Lord as He spoke this to me and had me share it was so kind, loving and sweet, I think it not only melted my heart, but the heart of the congregation also as they heard the word.
Like so many people, I spent years struggling with a works mentality, feeling condemned, like I could never be good enough, etc. It took many years of renewing my mind to get what I knew the scriptures said about God from my head to my heart, so that it changed the way I thought, felt about myself, related to others and my perception of God.
Many of our parents and grandparents had a works mentality ingrained into them, meaning that they got their sense of approval or worth and value (or lack of it) by working or performing. Unfortunately, sometimes when expressions of approval are withheld or are rarely given, this can create a “never enough” mentality, where a person feels like they have to constantly be striving to earn approval, but it’s never enough. If in addition to this, if there is a lot of negativity and/or anger and disapproval expressed, this forms an imprint in our soul (our mind, will and emotions) which gets transferred (subconsciously) over to our relationship with other people, especially authority figures and greatly affects our image of God. Consequently, a lot of people view God as being angry, hard to please, etc. and while God does get angry, the Bible reveals that He is very patient, kind and long suffering with His people.
After I shared the word that the Lord gave me, we had prayer. One of the ladies at the church, who does a lot in the church came forward and asked for prayer. She was still struggling with a root of rejection and the enemy constantly telling her that she didn’t measure up over something that had happened many years ago. As we prayed and took authority over the enemy, the Lord began bringing up in my spirit many scriptures that I had studied and He had used to bring healing into my life. I began saying “You are accepted in the beloved, holy, blameless and above reproach in His sight, etc.” (Colossians 1:22, Ephesians 1:4-6 AMP). By the end of our prayers, the lady had a big smile on her face that had replaced the look of concern and feelings of unworthiness. Praise God! He is sooo good and I just want everyone to know how really good He is and how much He loves you and me. His word says that He is not willing that any should perish, but all should come to repentance. He wants everyone to go to heaven and He wants to heal us spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically! If you’ve never invited Him into your heart or perhaps you’ve strayed away, all you have to do is ask Jesus to forgive you of all your sins and come into your heart and really mean it and He will. God bless you all.
In Christ – Kelly Rowe